off kilter and cooped up and peevish. all on the same morning.

such a delight.

maybe need caffeine or fresh air or a snack or to just go back to bed and start over in an hour or so.

wish i had one of those bikes with a big fat seat and somewhere to ride it, leisurely, some distance away.

since i don't maybe that thing i said before about going back to bed...

mish mush

This morning woke up nestled in a mound of cotton and down. First break in the heat feels like fall. ( Though next week it will be 90 degrees again, so let us not kid ourselves. ) Now it is just past noon and I have only just polished off my first cup of coffee.

Public radio is playing a particularly mellow lineup of songs in keeping with the grey and damp weather and I have been puttering about the kitchen feeling sentimental about such mundane, functional things as teapots and wall clocks and mauve (not pink) coffee mugs.

Should get into the shower and put on some proper clothes instead of just a robe, but right now am quite enjoying the occasional faint reminder of last nights lovely romp with the lights on and the illusion of having zero that needs attending to except the most domestic of things. ( Brewing tea and washing sheets and scratching the ears of insistent, well-fed felines. )

If time could be made to stand still please have it be made to on a day exactly like today replete with a heightened sense of the beauty of everyday things and a pure feeling of contentedness and ease and being right where one belongs.

drinking coffee when it rains is one of my all-time favorites.

srsly.

today on this first day of fall thinking of ordering a new coat as the one i have is probably close to a decade old and could soon find itself in a box bound for Goodwill.

maybe something wool. in plaid. old-school style.

we'll see.

to do : fill out about a bazillion boring papers for work and pick up after myself so the person i live with doesn't get tired of my slovenly ways and give me the boot.

ta-ta.

chicken soup and coffee for breakfast.

slow getting started today.

going to run some errands and seek out the perfect Saturday afternoon picnic location.

this evening headed to a movie for the first time in months and months (a year ?).

the theater we are going to has fried pickles and beer.

first rate !

quickie

on the way here in the car i was thinking about something that should be a happy thought and then it started to make me panic and then i almost started crying.

i wonder where this insane insecurity comes from and if there is an antidote ?

we are having a real drenching rain here for the first time in over a year.

it's fab.

this morning we had dim sum with a trio of quirky, fun friends. i suck at using chop sticks and need a fork and most of the food is full of shrimps which kind of grosses me out.

i am such a whitey pants.

came home and took a world-class nap with the windows open.

just go back from the store with a movie and the ingredients for cheesecake swirl brownies which i will be making and taking to a meeting tomorrow at work.

i am meeting all of the my co-workers for the first time and i want to make trick them into thinking i am nice.

suckers !

A mid-afternoon cup of coffee feels like such a treat.

Until all that extra caffeine plus coffee in a mostly empty stomach leave you with a slightly erratic heartbeat and a case of the queasy.

I am so fragile.

Ha.

you should be jealous

and not just because I am spending the week rocking San Antonio and days filled with sitting in a classroom

the real reason to be jealous...

today i booked a room here

for a five night stay

a year from now

i find it's always good to get a jump start on coveting