Good morning. Having a second cup of (decaf) coffee and futzing online before kicking it into gear to get ready for our trip tomorrow. Need to pack, hit the bank, straighten up the house a bit, etc. Already checked in for my flight and set an 'out of office' message on my work e-mail. Yes ! Plan is to be completely 'off-line' with the exception of having my phone available in case we need directions.

We've had a very mild summer here ( mild for us ) thus far but we are now into the 100+ degrees everyday no rain norm and the high tomorrow in San Francisco is forecasted to be 64 (!). Ahhhhh.

Briefly ( or not so ) here is some oversharing for you before I go :

We've been trying to conceive for coming up on a year and since having a miscarriage in April my body has been completely weird and frustrating. Today is the 37th day of my current menstrual cycle and I am making myself ( and I am sure the person who has to live with me ) insane. I have the worst acne since age 13, my lower back is killing me, and the last 5 days have felt like the day before my period. Two days ago I was off work and spent nearly the entirety of the day on the couch crying for no identifiable reason. I just felt so completely incapable of doing anything else.

I guess I should go see my OB ? When I was pregnant we had decided to use a midwife and so that is who provided care during my miscarriage. And they were so exceptional I really want to see them for any future pregnancy. I just feel awkward having to explain to the OB and ... Honestly I guess I feel bad that I don't want her to deliver my baby if I have one, but I want her to help me get pregnant. Or at least see what is happening right now that I feel like I have constant PMS and never ending cycles.

Reading that last paragraph just answered my question. I find it hard to believe a doctor I see once a year is going to be personally offended I didn't come see her for something. And if so whatev.

So look forward to upcoming 1) vacation report and 2) state of my reproductive system report(s).

Lucky, lucky you.

Xxoo

Happy Sunday.

I'm sitting in our bed looking out the window at our disaster of a backyard. Wow. It's looking wild and not in a good way. Ooof.

Today we had lunchtime Thai food with friends. It was our first time to this restaurant and it was tasty, but could have used some more heat in pretty much everything. I NEED my Thai spicy, people.

We dropped our lunch companions off and headed solo to Quack's for cake and coffee. It is not fair that cake is so fucking good. Truly. We got croissants for breakfast tomorrow and then left them sitting on the table when we left. Dammit.

I only work two days this week, Tuesday and Wednesday. I need to tomorrow get the house put in order and pack as Thursday I made plans to spend with my sister and a visiting friend and Friday we leave early for a few days of vacation in San Francisco. We went there last year for a very short visit and didn't have time to really get a feel for the city so - back we go.

That's about all that's going on here. Hope everything with you is great.

Xxoo

hi again.

feeling crummy since the weekend. not anything specifically wrong just ... gah.

finished work early, had a late lunch with my love. sitting on the couch. chugging water, burning incense ( my fave ). all bazillion of our cats are sleeping, most of them in positions that make them look like they belong alongside a highway.

it's quiet here.  just turned on some Krishna Das. ( i know, i know - white people who change their names from Jeffrey to Krishna are a little much for me to take most of the time also, but it's very relaxing. )

it's nice to be in this space again. thanks for coming.

xxoo

hello there.

would like very much to get back to posting here, but ...  ?

sitting on the couch, drinking rapidly cooling coffee, composing a 'TO DO' list in my head, listening to Tinariwen.